This is a backwards post.
You usually go online to find advice and information about something your interested in or want to know more about. Usually it starts with a search for one thing, you see something else, and BAM!. You find yourself on a completely different topic reading about how to crochet a boat cover for a boat you don’t even have. You find a link to someone’s blog and read all about their advice, experience, and suggestions. This is not that blog post. I am seeking YOUR advice, experience, and suggestions. That’s right. I am wanting you to tell me what I should do. I told you, this is backwards.
Since we decided that we will be homeschooling, I have been looking through every blog post on Pinterest, every link to state requirements, reading reviews of different curriculum options, and so on. I know a few homeschooling moms and I have flooded them with questions and picked their brains as much as I could without getting too weird. These ladies were so nice and so willing to chat with me, but let’s be honest. No one wants to sit in a coffee shop for 5 hours and answer question after question about their curriculum choices, daily routines, scheduled play dates, test options, or support groups. I thought I could use this platform to send out a bat signal for help. So let’s start from the beginning….
Our little one, Lyanna, just turned 2. She has a while to go before having to enter the school system, but as I started to think about that first day for her, I had a lot of doubts and fears. Like most parents, I started to worry about how people would treat her, how other children would treat her, would she be the nice, quiet girl or the talkative girl, how soon would she get labeled as such, how will she do with taking standardized tests, how fast will she pick up reading and comprehension skills, will she need extra help or interventions, and a million other things. The knot in my stomach kept getting bigger. This past school year was my first year in a public school setting and it was definitely an eye opener. I had worked in a private independent school for a few years and that environment is been COMPLETELY different from this new school.
I took a position as an Instructional Assistant for two first grade classrooms. Since I was just entering the public school system, I thought this position would be a good way for me to transition in to public education and still give me more flexibility for our daughter. After a month of being in these classrooms, I had already decided this was NOT going to be the environment we would be putting Lyanna in. What I saw startled me. It reminded me of a boot camp. Timers were always going off, children were walking around like robots to their next destination, and there were scripts written everywhere for them to follow ( and for me to follow, but that’s a different story for a different time ). Sitting in this classroom, I stopped and looked around, taking in all that I saw. I was missing my little one. My heart hurt for these children and I missed my own terribly. And then it dawned on me. No. This is not going to be my child’s future. My child is not a robot. A script is not going to take away social interactions from my daughter. Recess is NOT a ” maybe, if we have time” or ” Let’s have recess in the classroom, for 15 minutes “.
I will do anything and everything in my power to make sure that that is NOT her future.
I know what you’re going to say. I know that every classroom is different and there are teachers that do things completely different. I see that in the other classrooms I visited. I know that there are teachers that disagree with that type of classroom setup. That doesn’t change the fact that that is what some classrooms look like. I don’t want to take that chance with my child’s education. I’m a product of public education and I’m not saying that the entire institute is out of wack. However, the public education of my time is very different from what is happening today. What I’m saying is that path is not for her. I want our daughter to love learning, to be hands on and involved in her own education, to explore while she learns, and for us to share that experience together as well.
Now that I’ve rambled, I’ll get to the point. As with anything else, I want to know more. I want to know what we are in for. I want to know more about what is ahead of us. I want to know more opinions. Your opinions. I want to know what you know. I want to know the mistakes you made that led you to where you are now. I want to know your families’ accomplishments. Was there something you would have done differently from the beginning? Did you find a support group helpful? What resources do you use? Do you have a planned out budget for every year? Give me anything and everything!
While I am a licensed teacher, and I do feel qualified to teach, I think it is going to be a completely different experience than what I have been preparing for during my degree program. I want to hear your stories, your advice, and anything else you’d like to share. Most importantly, I want to be the best that I can be for our daughter. This post is a signal for help, advice, guidance, and friendship. Please feel free to leave me a comment here. Share this post with someone who has an experience I can learn from. Email me personally. Message me on Pinterest. On Facebook. However you want to share, please do so.
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